RV Station

The hand wash is about to run out
I see it and am reminded of you
You filled the bottle before you went away
Its stupid, maybe
To think the handwash is in any way a remembrance of you
But it is
In that one moment when I realize the bottle needs to be refilled
And that
You filled it last

I use your towel
Your smell is long gone
Gone that first day after you, gone after the first wash
But its yours
So it is you
So I use it

I sleep on your side of the bed
After I wake up from a bad dream
I used to hug pillows before, when you went away
I now hug your son
He is too little to protect anyone from anything
In fact
I sleep by the window side to protect him from my imaginary monsters
But when I get a nightmare, I hug him
And am reminded of you

I think I am too much
In love with you
To be without you
Even now
And maybe forever